Rain goes on...

god say keep on hoping
for because god said it to me shall i believe
a chapther on the bible said god hardern the pharoah heart for being against god
i think that is what god have done for me
for i have once taken his love n guidance as a torture in life

it is jus so hard to cry
esp this week how i wish i could roll tears down out of my eyes
i think so far this year this week have been the worst and ultimate challenge
human beings testing my patience to the extreme
there are frdship who take ur care and love forgranted
then there is the father who question ur love for him when he nvr a day in his life bother to raise u
then u have a job u no longer have the passion to go on anymore
n religion u still trying to understand n think thru "is this reali what i wan, reali who i wan to praise n pray to?"
then u think thru all these how u wish when god created mankind have he omitted u
i surrender myself to the lord for he have all the answers to my life problems
thru his words shall i find the strength to fight
and thru his words shall i find the love i need to fill this heart that have been hardern

i feel always that all the frds i have r not truely frds
only a few very few
there r those who feel are we r really close for we share similarities
but i always feel special different from others
i feel sometimes the only frd i have is myself
there are things u know u frds listen to some they dun
y bother talking rit
then ppl judge u by labelling u as anti-social
hey i am jus human y should i speak if nothing is in my mind
y should i speak if i have my own demons in my mind to fight off
god i seek ur mercy to get me thru this

amen,
kai ergo :(